I Turned 21!






No pictures of me being 21 yet.
I was smashed. Physically, mentally, emotionally, and no.. I've not recovered from any of it. What a way to begin my adulthood, well... as if the definition of "adult" did not apply to me before Saturday.
I wonder if I am capable of living the life I want. There are times when I showed the kind of attitude I would wish to have for my entire life, and other times which I really wish that I could find excuses to cover for my insanity. Now that I am an "adult", I need to be wise, to be able to think and make decisions that favor situations.
Which means, I'm going to get married soon and think of names for my 4 babies.
=]
Although things did not turn out the way I wanted it to be, thank you all for your warm thoughts! It was overwhelming to see all those messages in my phone and FB...
And since I fucked up my own birthday and missed/going to miss most parties (except for Debs), let's do a belated celebration for all when I'm back, yea?
I'm going to crawl back to sleep. I woke up about an hour ago from a dream with this yellow box that kept going "you'll be stronger" in a monotonous way. How annoying! When I decided to rid it out of the window, I saw a crystal garden sitting outside. Right, a garden with crystals hanging everywhere. Like the leaves were crystal instead! It was beautiful... It was amazing... And that was because it was a dream.
The rain is falling like crazy tonight and I would like to think that the nature is feeling for me too..
Happy Monday to all

